I    M     P     R     O     V     I    S    A     T     I     O     N

03/2009 - Find Out Where You Are and Go There


FIND OUT WHERE YOU ARE AND GO THERE:
Discovering the Creative Underdog

by Jose H. Cedillos

Night Flight



Canek said to Guy, "Look up in the sky. Count the stars."
"They can't be counted."
Canek went on, "Look down at the earth and count the grains of sand."
"They can't be counted either."
Then Canek said, "Even though it isn't known, there is a number to the stars and a number to the grains of sand. What exists and can't be counted but we still feel here inside must have a word so we can talk about it. The word in this case is ‘vast.' A word soaked in mystery. Having the word, you don't have to count stars or grains of sand. We've traded knowledge for feeling, which is also a way of getting inside the truth of things."

-- Canek, History and Legend of a Maya Hero, Ermilo Abreu Gomez


 

After the Night - See ABSTRACTS
After the Night


THE MYSTERY DOODLER IN THE BELLY OF A WAR MACHINE

 

"Huh! This is very unusual. Nobody has ever finished this test before."  


He was puzzled but couldn't immediately reconcile his glances at his wrist watch, at the test clock, and at the completed test in his hand. The Human Resources manager looked at my test pamphlet and then glanced at the time clock at the front of the testing room again. My test pamphlet was sitting closed on the desk in front of me when he walked in just as the testing timer "dinged," marking the end of the timed test. I was the lone test taker that morning and the manager didn't realize the clock's timer had gotten stuck and I had worked for an extra 10 minutes. Ten minutes is a very long time in a timed test. I kept my mouth shut about the timer since I was the only one in the room taking the test.


He smiled at me, looked down at my test pamphlet and repeated in a pleased tone, "No one ever finished this test before." Impressed by this he acceded that I was indeed one smart ethnic applicant. He seemed almost proud. I looked at him through my horn-rimmed glasses, clean shaven, without saying a word, trying to look as intelligent as I could in my version of a mestizo nerd.


I was desperate for work and had applied because I was applying everywhere and anywhere. Jobs at Wah Chang-Teledyne were the envy of local folks and people dreamed of getting work there at its premium wages.  I was of course a yellow dog savoring odd luck with nothing to lose, amused by the reactions of the Human Resources manager. I was hired on the spot for a plum job. I would work as an assistant in the Production Planning department of the Wah Chang-Teledyne plant in Albany Oregon, along and across the Willamette River from Corvallis where I lived with my wife, my first-born infant son and my mother.


Driving in snow chains along the river to Albany to report to work in the Wah Chang-Teledyne facility on my first day as a junior production planner I thought about the lies I told on my application and about the weirdness of the stuck timer. When the application asked if I had any criminal convictions on my record I had checked "No, No, No." If I had checked "Yes" that would have been the end of that application of course. I also marked that I was a high school graduate. I was wary and uncertain of my good fortune based on lies and lying but having found "inside work" and having walked away from a warehouse grass seed cleaning job feeling disrespected I had to move ahead.


That's how I came to be sitting alone in empty office settings, gazing around at the books, wall charts, desktops, even calipers and slide rules of a people engaged in the craft and art of exotic metallurgy. As a junior production planner I circulated independently throughout the manufacturing facilities collecting data from its various offices and testing laboratories. I wore a temporary yellow "Confidential" security badge contingent on a background check by the FBI to be done within the year. I could ignore this background check for a while.


"This job really suits me," I thought as I came and went without supervision. I meant I was still a loner and liked it that way.


I sat quietly in empty offices, usually in early morning before others arrived or during lunch and shift breaks. I was trying to learn by improvising thumbnails of knowledge from these surroundings, thumbnails I could use to make my way.  I looked around at the highly technical environment looking for clues to…to what?...to this strange war machine? We were making space-age metals for future high-temperature wars and machines. I wanted to know who these people were. I wanted to understand them so I could get along with them, how to talk with them. I was improvising a persona, a strange working identity, from random scraps of any kind of information. I scanned the empty ambiance of the offices at leisure for five or ten minutes at a time. My eyes washed by a sense of emptiness I puzzled over the silent reality of a world I had stumbled into by a feat of Time as a trickster. Sitting in what were usually very active environments I enjoyed the solitude of quiet time and felt a keen awareness of a kind of gathering. I often had the thought that should I ever write a book about developing a sense of place I would call it "Find out Where You Are and Go There."


The natural observer and the outsider in me were trying to learn what I needed to survive in a war machine masquerading as a civilian manufacturing enterprise. I was working deeply in its secretive entrails as a data collector. Moving among and around these war machine folks I felt I was gleaning in a strange dream in a different land. I also knew I was busy improvising and preparing my tools to meet the unknowns in this environment.


I scrutinized bookshelves and flipped through metallurgical texts and learned about heat and metal recrystallization and envisioned it as a psychological process for the re-integration of the Self, my Self of course. I took notice of desk accoutrements and silently studied doodles on deskpads. The office deskpad was ubiquitous, like open books on every desk. The engineers and technicians charged with inventing the technology of exotic space-age metallurgy on the fly preferred and expected a uniform setting throughout the offices. When production equipment broke down or technical problems stymied their scheduling plans staff chronic frustration was so visible I took to counting the scowls as a temper indicator. I knew by the number of scowls when not to make unnecessary comments, none if possible, and when to stay away and when to come back later to collect my data. During a production stoppage the technical staff left the factory floor and returned to their desks in a rush, made a few notes, and drowned their anger in smudgy, irregular doodling. Even the brightest engineers, the ones with blue Secret clearance badges, worked out their frustrations by turning their deskpads into sheets of graphite messes. When the sheets became sloppy with graphite pools they were ripped off their pads, crumbled irritably and tossed, as we used to say in office lingo, into the circular file. Gleaning from office trash baskets was an eavesdropping tool I learned from factory janitors and maintenance workers who always knew what was going on in the management offices. From my perspective the discarded deskpad sheets were free pickings, staff castoffs adding to the available litter of their trash terrain. This offered me a type of data no one else wanted. Their trash gave me something free to work with, free for the picking and careful unfolding. Opening a few crumbled sheets and studying the scribbling of all-male engineers and technicians, I held the deskpad sheets by their corners as if they were napkins used for sopping up mental drooling. Their doodles all ended drowned in the graphite obliteration of frustration with anger. I saw how much like smudgy displeasure their inert puddles were, how ineffectual their compulsive doodling was. I could see the depth of their frustrations just as I could count scowls. These folks were tense.


The staff in the physical testing laboratory was somewhat exempt from the stop-and-go operations because they were not directly involved with production. They stayed in the lab since it was their work station and had a lot of time on their hands. When not testing various metals, such as Columbium for hardness, or Vanadium for malleability and not working because of production down time they liked to spend it on mental and verbal puzzles. Working difficult crosswords intensely was very popular. Long periods of potential idle time, however, were broken up by both stop-and-go production operations and from unpredictable VIP visits. Air Force officers with chest metals and ribbons walked in unannounced at any time on any day, bringing everyone to a halt as they passed through offices. They often stopped in the chemical and physical testing laboratories to get the latest technical information on quality control problems and solutions. Weekly emergency calls from the military upper echelon led to frantic responses in this or that office and lab. Staff had learned to drop everything and to mobilize, quickly satisfying government requests and the sure-to-come calls for new reports. These staff reactions were very military in nature even if carried out in civilian dress. Disruptive incidents sometimes lasted for days but they ended as suddenly as they had flared up to begin with. I thought that these flare ups were very similar to those hallucinatory events in Guadalupe that erupted from time to time with the exception that what was familiar here was very different. Yet I couldn't escape the sense that a collective act of conjuration was going on. 


Suddenly the call would come, "We're up!" and again production processes were up and running and machinery was again thundering and emitting screeching noises. Every one hurriedly returned to their supervision and monitoring of production worklines and workstations.


The technical staff lived accordingly in this time-skewed environment. Their highly directed behavior was precise but then, suddenly, when manufacturing stoppages happened they flopped down heavily at their desks and twiddled their thumbs, aggravated and frowning. A few minutes after dropping down to idle they would begin to doodle. I watched how they absentmindedly reached for a pencil. I could see they were unconsciously captured by doodling, by its transitory nature and valuelessness, particularly the disposability of its arbitrary quickness that led directly to a wastepaper basket. Doodling was easy to disregard because it was considered worthless, designed to be disposable. To me, these same properties, the non-intentionality and disposability of worthlessness, the abandonment of responsibility through the idea of impermanence, transformed their desk pads into mental blotters of unconscious noodling.  I was learning that they used these like paper towels for absorbing inkblots of furtive, broken, aborted scraps of ideas and for mopping up the slag of frustrated success.


Their doodles became my gathering and gleaning fields for learning the twig and leaf, the wood and stone, the fire and water, of their basic acts.  It gave me great pleasure to be moving through an obvious folk environment and its strange streams, spreading fishing nets to catch whatever I could. Nobody questioned my comings and going because I was a legitimate member of the group living in a fenced-in complex patrolled by guards. I belonged because obviously if I didn't belong Security would have kept me out. I had been given the appropriate classified security clearance and admitted to membership. The Human Resources manager saw to that.


Feeling very much like a yellow dog I was wary in my new surroundings. I was particularly careful about being seen entering or leaving offices during quiet times. When sure that no one was around, I stopped at the desks of folks who were friendly types. I was surreptitiously adding to their doodles while they were absent. My own desk pad was pristine and the pleasure of drawing on a pad of scribblings felt as creative and self-affirming as when I cut a circle in the ground with a long stick in one full motion and stood in it facing north under a cold Colorado sun so I could cry out, "I am!" and so be so. I felt feral again, even if I was scratching surreptitiously at the motions of others. I prowled and felt real, a stranger moving through groupings of trade friends.


It was clear to me that the technical staff dumped the trash cans of their directed thinking, all their leftover thought, onto their desk pads. The fruits of their directed Beta thinking went into logbooks, notebook calculations and reports, but when the staff was off-task and in Alpha brainwave states they turned to their deskpads, slipping their castoff thoughts and emotional slag onto messy sheets, tossing many into their wastepaper baskets daily. I read their deskpad sheets like an expert interpreter of psychological diagrams. I examined their messy doodles like psychic runes, scanning them through the Tarot card symbolism I learned from a dying Carney in Austin, Texas. I flashed back to my early teenage years sitting alone and doodling in the Monte Carlo Café trying to make irrational markings mean something. By using multiple templates of knowing when I looked at their smears my mind was open to everything. By defocusing the messiness, throwing it off as if it were camouflage, I shifted into Theta state openness and creativity. I followed their shadowed impulses and dark erratic energy in the fuse of lines, dashes, letters, numbers, rubbings and scratchings.  I was scanning intuitively, following where their beginnings completed themselves and their endings broke into beginnings. I made contact with images as they briefly emerged and then sunk away subdued by the incompletions of thought and feeling they swam in. I was improvising in alien territory using a Theta state to make my moves. Their unconscious slopping and mopping and their trash dumpings guided my process of perception and insight. As I followed their unconscious work through intuition I heard humming always in the background, "Remember, ‘there are no mistakes.'"


This was to remind me of a creativity mantra for maintaining Theta state.


Full acceptance burns brightly in Theta. Judgmental impulses take you right out of the Theta state. Switching back to Beta finds you busily sorting out the best of everything, sorting the most from the least and entering entropy's path where discards are created endlessly. You could say that Theta brainwaves work like optimism and Beta brainwaves like pessimism. Theta is inclusive, Beta exclusive. I sought to move into the doodlers' psychic space through full contact with the fragments of their things, their thoughts, their feelings and their non-rational mentation. I was trying to become a mirror.


I was nonchalantly amused at my coyote skulking among white people who were wearing buzz cuts and plaid shirts, decent folks talking loudly about hunting, fishing and sports. I expected to hear the entrance of flugle horns at any time. As I walked through offices I could hear chatter about drawings and doodlings. I ignored the chatter. I was studiously occupied with collecting data.  When I was asked if I knew who did the drawing on the deskpads, I shrugged and smiled, pointing out a leg here, a half-formed face there, submerged figures hidden in subtle outlines. I acted with surprise as if I had just discovered them when they showed me the deskpad sheets. I felt I was teaching them how to see. I continued on my data collection circuit. I had done my part, or so it appeared.


Others besides the testing laboratory folks began to notice surprising changes to their deskpad doodles. These struck them as clever. They showed them to each other as they crumbled and tossed their deskpad sheets with amusement into the trash. I became craftier and more elaborate in completing figures from their inert fantasies, more experimental in connecting doodles that, I easily noticed, were becoming more outlandish, but clearer and less puddled and smeared. I knew from eavesdropping on a group of technicians that they were now intentionally leaving scribblings on their deskpads and drawing new doodles to purposefully pose challenges to whoever was drawing on their deskpads. Technical people are trained to visualize in the terms of the logic of parts and systems and their doodles were easy to transfix in new visual coordinates, like making a submerged Christ figure appear hanging on a cross against a troubled graphite sky, or making a turbulent graphite tumble become a ship captured in high seas without navigational coordinates. I simply added their anti-version, that is, as in Tarot readings, I added their unconscious impulses, the "as above, so below" mirror that runs through all actions in the universe. Clarence my Carney teacher would have been amused at the innocence revealed but unhappy, I'm sure, about my walking so certainly in the shadows of untruth. After all, I was being invasive by being secretive. No one cared about the deskpad sheets yet a new kind of value had been introduced.


I was working with whatever my environment afforded and with the circumstances it provided, or more humanely, I was accepting what life gave me to work with. How coyote was this? -the Mexican high school kickout with a criminal record mysteriously exchanging doodles with white technicians and engineers with buzz cuts in a space age manufacturing environment? I noted how encoded everything was for them, how unbreakable, except by its own weight and force. At times I imagined myself in the bowels of pyramids exchanging petty drawings with Mayan priests and their technicians.


The tensile strength testing laboratory where the basics of pulling and pushing metal to different kinds of breaking points produced streams of physical data was one of my daily data collection points. Entering the lab I was greeted by four garrulous technicians flourishing a deskpad sheet. They had figured out I was the mystery doodler, the only one with opportunity they said,  and laughing like the joke was on me handed me a desk pad sheet with a mass of scribblings. The scribbling was blocked and frenzied, filled with cognitive obstructions with many zigzagging lines of impulsive intentions, a kind of mental suicide by engineering drawing.


 They watched me scribble away, a dash here, several dashes there, as their complicated doodle became a hayseed farmer with a Van Gogh straw hat and a wishbone toothpick (how Oregonian, I thought). They were truly impressed. "More," they said and I thought of my Mexican Guadalupe cousins begging Marcella in double entendre falsetto "Have Mercy on me."  They wanted more. Drawings were shown around as I left the lab on my rounds. The technicians loved improvisation. It was quick, easy, prolific, intriguing and without responsibility.


Casual interest in doodling began to seep slowly like a stain on a blotter to other offices and other desks. I was the itinerant Bricoleur again, leaving Bricolages on office pads, spinning enhanced drawings from doodles now left for me. I was the expert who knew about improvisation and the counter-intuitive. I could convert the valueless into something of interest. As I made my data collection rounds information became easier to get. It was set aside for me. In the Production Planning department from which the executive group drew critical information in making real time decisions concerning classified projects, including the top secret "black" programs, nuclear reactors, re-entry vehicles and such, my records were up-to-date, even to the hour, and reliable.


Walking across the now chilly Wah Chang yard I could see winter would not be long in coming. It would soon be a year of solid middle class income with health benefits by being employed at Wah Chang-Teledyne. Oregonians like to say it takes three years to acclimate to its long, rainy seasons and its occluding cloud cover producing weeks of sunless ceilings and low nights moonless and starless. They say after three years you know you've become an Oregonian because you've grown duck webbing between your toes. My webbing in my second year, however, was insulation, a heavy sweater and jacket, a thick scarf, waterproof hat, gloves – carrying an umbrella as part of my daily uniform. I had to wrap tighter every morning under colder skies. Under these oppressive overcast ceilings I drove back and forth along the Willamette River knowing the FBI would soon review my background and discover I had lied about a number of critical items, particularly about my arrest record and the fact that I was an ex-felon. They would find out I was not who I said I was. When I signed production reports I knew I was falsifying government records as a matter of course. Everyday when I flashed my security clearance badge at the entrance to the complex I knew I was perpetrating an illegal impersonation. Every time I walked into a "Secret" experimenting area I knew I was breaching security. Would I now be open to prosecution for filing false records, for a string of security breaches?


I became more knowledgeable about the plant's expertise in exotic metallurgy and how to tinker, how to "long pencil," the classified information so that it flowed quickly to the government. Yet stress continued to build up along the two major fault lines, finances and identity, in my life. Weighing all factors before making a change, I thought deeply how my first son, born Indian dark, would be discriminated against in conservative White Oregon. I only had to look around at the plight of Native Americans everywhere in the Northwest and around in my work environment to see I was the only Latino but that I was light skinned and wrote solid English and spoke with a barely detectable accent.


A ruinous sense of time in my body's clock began to press forward like cows jostling toward their barn, knowing the government had a strict time table for reviewing personnel files at the end of an employee's first year. The wholeness and texture of Time began breaking up. Time began fragmenting from seasonal chunks to single months then to the daily framing of production data. My timeframe broke down into the two-week payroll period and then into the in-between weeks and then the days and then the hours while I contemplated the deadline of my upcoming annual evaluation. When I walked across the open compound I felt the ground of Time steadily slipping away like the sand in the proverbial hourglass of Fate and Change.


Everyday became a mere slice of time. Getting in and getting out of the Wah Chang compound every day was all I was doing. I had to leave, or be tossed out at best. I had tapped the local labor market for sporadic fieldwork, and then for warehousing work, then an office job, and finally for work with a manufacturing élan, but I still had no future other than federal prison bars or the socio-economic bars of unemployment. Waiting under the threat of a new and meaner winter, all seemed a dead end or simply another dark nest of disappearing roads. Becoming better known at work made the threat of exposure weigh even more on me. When I falsely announced that I was leaving to get a Master's degree (I didn't have a BA or a high school diploma) several engineers told me, "I respect what you're doing," meaning that choosing education and giving up a great job was a tough but admirable thing to do.


We returned to California in a rental truck stuffed with all our belongings towing our blue VW bug behind. We escaped like I escaped from the California fields, with nothing but what we carried, an escape through sharp economic lines like through a barbed wire fence. I was improvising again and my persistence on knowing through feeling rather than learning only through facts, on learning in Theta state conditions, of taking tests by improvising as if they were drawings, would lead me to the University of California.

© 2008-2009  Jose Cedillos (08/13/2008).   All rights reserved.
A Mexican American Memoir (147 pages; 35,549 words; 20 images)

BACK TO TOP


SUMMARY:  The scene takes place in the Wah Chang-Teledyne manufacturing plant in Albany, Oregon, circa 1968. It is a tightly controlled, classified plant under U.S. government security. It makes rare metals, also called exotic metals, for nuclear technology and space exploration. Parts of the multi-plant complex are marked "Top Secret." Winter is coming to the Northwest. I am desperate for work. I am sitting in an applicant testing room alone when the Human Resources Manager comes in...

08/2008 - The Horizons Café Project


THE HORIZON CÁFE PROJECT:
Testing Bricolage Improvisational Composition

2000-2001
by Jose H. Cedillos


Florida Ease

Florida Ease

INTRODUCTION

In early morning house fire in December 1999 left us driving away in soot-stained clothing to look for a place to live. The house could be restored but had to be gutted, and we had to live elsewhere. After three temporary moves, Sue and I settled into leased transitional quarters to wait out the 15 months it would take to restore the house. During these 15 months, we ate out regularly, frequenting Italian bistros, as well as Japanese, Chinese, and vegetarian restaurants. Sue comes from an immigrant line of Jewish musicians and caterers and inherited a flair for critical kosher taste and for making gustatory distinctions over every slice and morsel of food.

 

Touting vegan food in a small health food store, Rich Landau was working in an apron and hairnet behind a small stove, making savory soups and imaginative sandwiches. We often sat in his three-table corner of the health food store, lunching and dining on organic sandwiches and his excellent soups as Sue praised Rich's vegan cuisine. We are not vegans or even vegetarians. We eat fowl and fish, but as Sue likes to say, we don't eat anything larger than ourselves. We bought curative herbs and homeopathic medicines from the health food part of the store to offset the effects of waking up in a burning house.

 

Munching on grilled portabella hoagies, I was about to begin a six-year association with this white-aproned vegan chef, whose art and cuisine would become noted and highly rated. In 2006, his two-story vegan cuisine restaurant in downtown Philadelphia (www.horizonsphiladelphia.com) was rated ‘3 Bells' and referred to as a Philadelphian "destination restaurant" in The New York Times.

 

In 2000, when Rich was beginning to grow his clientele and his reputation as a vegan chef, he moved into extra space in the health food store and opened his first restaurant. The health food store and Rich's restaurant were connected by an open passthrough. The ambiance was friendly, but the décor was conservative and almost staid. Rich would later refer to it as "grandmotherly."

 

In January 2001, our house was finally ready for occupancy, and we gratefully moved back into a house that had been completely redone, repainted, and refurnished with insurance monies. We answered our new front door that summer to find Rich standing at our doorstep. We thought it was a bit strange for him to show up suddenly and, of course, we were curious about his visit. He announced he was moving his business connected to the health food store three doors down from the store. He was going to open his own separate restaurant with the "open" kitchen he wanted. He was going to call it Horizons Café. He came with a straightforward deal.

 

"Can you make my new restaurant look like this, like your house?"

 

He meant colorful, with a sense of spaciousness, unusual but modest and inexpensive. We had taken pleasure in improvising our new décor (within the limits of insurance definitions of what they will pay for after a fire). Because the fire had destroyed all my work, I had created the art on our walls in the intervening 16 months. I call my improvisational art Bricolage after the French idea of the itinerant fix-it man, the Bricoleur, who invents what he needs to fix or make something from whatever happens to be around. This fairly describes what I do when I work creatively.

 

Rich grinned, "I don't have any money, but if you do the interior design, you can hang all your Bricolage art there."

 

He wanted ambiance, a touch of newness, a sense of something different, but on a limited budget. His place would be called Horizons Café to emphasize his innovative cuisine, particularly his use of grilled seitan and seared tofu to create exciting dishes.

 

Rich sat in our house, sharing his plans for having his own place and making his own free beginning, "I want my new place to be exciting, different in some way."

 

He looked around at our house filled with Bricolage pieces from my just completed sabbatical work, "Like this."

 

A cozy Vegan gourmet restaurant with a Bricolage gallery in our neighborhood? We took the project sight unseen, and although opening day was only seven weeks away, intuition was on our side.

 

This was an opportunity to "real world" test a Bricolage theory of improvisational composition. By "real world" test, I meant that providing a successful dining experience had real risk consequences for the business success or failure of Horizons Café. This risk profile came with interesting challenges. Sue and I were to create a public arena in which Bricolage pieces were part of a social dining event. Could we improvise a décor and enough pieces of original wall art within seven weeks, all resulting in a restaurant ambiance that would be part of Horizons' business success or failure? What would Rich's vision of a "destination" ambiance look like using the Bricolage improvisational process to interpret, visualize, and create it?

 

Rich laughed, "Somehow make it terrific without money right away." This was consistent with his creative approach to life. A straightforward guy, he is a food artist steeped in creativity. He is always eager to create even with almost nothing if necessary. Rich envisioned serving his gourmet menu of international vegetarian cuisine in a setting that helped produce an "elegant dining experience," an ambiance appropriate for dining on a meal designed with pleasure. An intense young artist, Rich was clear about where he was going, "I want Horizons to be thought of as a destination restaurant." That was six years before The New York Times declared that Horizons was a vegetarian destination restaurant in Philadelphia and after he married Kate Jacoby, who would become his dessert chef. His dream became a done deal in 2006.

 

"Challenges are what make life interesting," he says.

 

When he praises my Bricolage work, I tell him, "Hey Rich, I work with fluids and paint and shove them around on a surface while they slowly dry, but you work with fire and instant transformation. You have to work fast. I don't. My hat's off to you."

 

He smiles at that. We know we both improvise. Six years later at the new place downtown, now called simply Horizons, I said to Rich, "Horizons and Bricolage are simpatico and synergistic." We all agreed.

 

THE HORIZONS CÁFE PROJECT

After we agreed to Rich's plan and offer, Sue and I drove over to the pizza parlor to see what we had to work with. The front entrance to the box store looked like this:

Horizons-Willow Grove

Original Site, Willow Grove, PA

The Horizons Café project consisted of transforming a shoebox-shaped former pizza operation into something cool and interesting. The space was 50 by 100 feet, including a rear office and two bathrooms. When I first looked inside the facility, I muttered, "Holy shit, what have I taken on!"  The utilitarian "eatery" challenged conventional answers to transformation. A box is still a box, I thought before I let the resistive thought flow away.

Horizons - Kitchen

Original Interior, Kitchen Front to Rear

The first challenge of the Horizons Café assignment was to project and gather feelings to visualize on the blank canvas that Rich offered up. He envisioned a tropical decor that would "make people think of being away." He tossed out carte blanche creativity notions, "make it part Caribbean, part Mediterranean, part Southwest, and make it so when people come in the door they say ‘Wow!'."

 

The project's second creativity challenge was money. The design and décor had to be produced from an illusion on bare walls. Limited to conventional flat wall painting, Sue and I had to transform a shoebox with color and graphic design. This flat wall painting was the only kind of refurbishing authorized by the landlord for Horizons Café as his new tenant. We could freely choose colors, but there would be no wall treatments, no handwork, and no budget for modifications, such as relocating light fixtures or outlets—only flat wall painting.

 

The third creativity challenge was urgency. The restaurant's opening was scheduled in seven weeks. Repairs and construction work to strip out the pizzeria's old take-out equipment and countertops and to organize the box into a new dine-in restaurant were already started. This work would be ongoing at the same time we worked to evolve our décor design and color scheme.

 

BEGINNING THE PROJECT

The Bricolage creative process begins by looking around and seeing what is interesting and what is not interesting in the immediate circumstances. We first assembled a realistic view of our options as refurbishing work by contractors working independently went along. The process of producing and gathering options advances as the Bricoleur recognizes whatever the environment offers, including scrap, trash, and broken things. Visual options arise and fade away as circumstances change. What was a good idea before a wall is painted pink may not be an option after. The act of gathering must be continuous because options drop and fade away, and new options are created from changes. Sue and I were visual bricoleurs. We were co-designers of the décor by making do with whatever was at hand each day, each in our own way and time.

 

Once inside, we were faced with the different angles and surfaces of a box. Angles, surfaces, corners, and abutments were all visual parts of our immediate circumstances. These were white and ripe for emphasis with color, shape, and line. The one unbroken, full-length wall featured a grey granite bump strip that wouldn't be removed. The offset narrow walls and corners framed the "open kitchen" in a corner looking out on a small dining environment. These were the physical circumstances in which we were to create an aesthetic experience with improvisational ardor and a shoestring budget. Synonymous with the creative attitude, we were optimistic and as always exploratory in spirit.

 

As the construction workers banged and sawed and pulled wires, Sue and I dropped in daily to look at the work being done, observed current conditions, and gathered visual impressions. We were alert to opportunities to give something a creative twist, something unforeseen and unplanned, something that was not there until an eye blink brought it up through intuition. This was playful and creative. We would quickly write the next color instructions on the walls, draw color placement diagrams on pieces of scrap wood, and then get out of the way of the half dozen workers. Putting the restaurant into operation was the main priority of all this activity. Decorative details and painting were patched in as the mechanical and the electrical and functional aspects of the kitchen were done first. The design of the improvisational process was pastiche, montage, collage, and bricolage all in a one roll. Gathering visual impressions of these changing work circumstances were the next steps for going forward and committing to our design decisions.

 

Rich had said "part this, part that, with some of that" in a kind of recipe for the way he plated his artistic creations and concocted his marvelous soups and his elegant dishes now featured in the city's main food reviews. Following our sense of his guidance, we built Horizons' color palette from Caribbean, Mediterranean, Southwestern "parts"—Tahitian Breeze, Fire Pink, Harbour Blue, Chartreuse, and Cassis, a deep plum—by flipping color chips into arrays of combinations.

 

"Ah. I like that one and this one together," someone would say.

 

Playing a game of chance in this way, we spontaneously assembled a colorful and powerful palette. We were mindful that this process was playful, but not "just play" because of its serious and real-world business consequences for Rich and Kate. We had to make choices and put them into action now.

 

Initially shocked by the bold palette, Rich asked skeptically, "Are you sure you want the ceiling painted Harbour Blue?" We had asked the painting contractor to paint the ceiling panels and their holding grid Harbour Blue. It is a deep, dark, low-register blue. Sue and I agreed that we did. Why did we agree? The dark blue ceiling over a light-colored floor would create a hovering surround; it would define interior space the way a cavern creates its surround. 

 

We added Harbour Blue arches on walls now painted in bold colors. The arches worked to visually draw the ceiling to the floor. As we developed the color and value inversion of the ceiling/floor, we began to work with the idea of creating a moveable sense of place by encapsulating it with space instead of walls. We didn't want diners to feel contained, as if in a box, but to experience a sense of spaciousness through color. We set about to create a network of visual experiences to capture the sense of plasticity, that is, to create the sense of aliveness we usually refer to as ease in a sedentary space. We wanted to elicit the sense of visceral ease. What a better way to prepare to dine than to sit relaxed while your gustatory sense is enlivened with anticipation.

 

The next step in visual improvisational composition is to switch from thinking to seeing, to make a switch from left-brain direction to right-brain absorption, to outwardly switch from squinting at things to looking around with a kind of idle ease. This switch defines what you look at and what you see. This switch is difficult because we are trained to look purposefully, to be looking at "something." We are taught that time spent noticing how some trivial scrap looks like a broken horse is for time-wasters, for daydreamers. We are taught that "time is money." I had seen the Mesoamerican fieldworker spend time like this, turning some small object in hand in various ways, seemingly without purpose. Yet this switch begins the intuitive process of improvisation. An environment contains all the paths necessary to optimize it, but like motion in any complex environment, all the potential options are best perceived and navigated with a consistent ease, thus not blocking any through using a least-action principle in combination with a least-resistance principle. The ease that comes from this combinatory use is necessary because the improvisational artist seeks to create full access to off-beat opportunities. Like turning a kaleidoscope, these possibilities arise with ease in the simple turning of ordinary circumstances to the improvisational composer. Engaging the senses by the suspension of thinking and placing cognitive activity in the backseat to ongoing experience are the prescient acts of the discovery behavior, which is at the heart of improvisation. The dual abilities to suspend ego direction and to work without planning are critical.

 

All conditions and materials are useful to the Bricolage artist in some as yet undetermined way. Improvisational composition is not about just doing anything, rather it's about finding new connections. "Picasso doesn't seek, he finds," he said. We have to grasp that we can see more than we know. Approaching circumstances through direct perception turns the power of observation into a flow, that is, we turn the act of perception into a moving visual behavior. The "seer" begins participating in environmental dynamics and not just into taking snapshots of midstream instances.

 

The direct perception of the features of circumstances connects us to nature's creativity and to its Taoist flow of aesthetic potential. The eye scintillates as context, figure, and ground glide unpredictably from perceptual organization to perceptual organization. With vision oriented to non-directed experience, the power of acting visually begins to yield juxtapositions in the reflections and flashes of looking around at how things are. Here, the ability to create value inversions by turning the ordinary upside down in the context of their circumstances is a critical perceptual skill. As the originality of making new connections is made visible, the Bricolage artist must be able to access these non-cognitive processes at will and at ease without becoming possessive.

 

PERSONAL BRICOLAGE

While Sue and I evolved Horizons' décor, I set about to improvise as many wall pieces as I could in seven weeks. I calculated the walls needed upward of 20 pieces. I didn't plan a design or sketch out a thematic development. Instead, I worked only with the overall sense that the pieces would be "part Caribbean, part Mediterranean, and part Southwest."

 

Everyday, as I prepared to begin my improvisational process, I noticed the urge, the pressure, to make something interesting, something eye-catching, something that would make people go "Wow!" When I felt the impulse to make something powerful, I knew from my sabbatical work that my intentionality was changing the compositional process. I knew that "wanting" to make something particularly "special" corrupted the integrity of the improvisational process. Coming immediately to my aid like active meditations, aphoristic guides to maintaining non-intentionality—such as "shame or fame, it's all the same" and "there are no mistakes"—leaped forward to reconnect me to the improvisational process. These guides to transcending social control release the primary power of the Id and evoke the flow of its nondiscretionary impulses. Repeating these mantras—reminders that the intentionality of social control seizes our every behavior—was necessary to displace the thinking ego from its executive position of judgment and command. It was necessary to distance the ego from the actions of non-intentional creativity.

 

Working without a budget, I turned to basic salvaging practices and gathered discarded articles from curbside trash for the source of my raw materials. I worked on velveteen jewelry display trays, broken mirrors, discarded plaster wall pieces, and framed prints spoiled by water stains. Whatever I found as I drove through neighborhoods during trash days became part of my compositional materials.

 

"Quick, honey," Sue was calling me from her cell phone. "There's a bunch of canvases in front of 1648 Hutchinson. It looks like they just now put them out on the curb."

 

I jumped in my minivan, drove across several townships and salvaged four large canvases, one of which, a 5-foot by 6-foot piece, I later bricolaged and titled Magic Mushroom. The four canvases, propped up between trash cans at the curb, were covered with spider webs. They spoke of the end of life. ‘Wendy E.' was the signed artist. I felt grateful to Wendy, although I had mixed feelings about picking through her discarded art. Her work looked like it had been taken out of a basement, where it had sat for years, and then deposited, sadly I'm sure, out on the sidewalk with other curbside trash. She had probably passed away.

 

Two weeks later while driving around, I again fortuitously ran into another batch of curbside canvases. I sat in my van and watched a frail, elderly man, white-haired and wearing a thin, faded shirt, walk slowly down his driveway and feebly place a final canvas among the others at the curb. This time, they were clean, medium-sized canvases by ‘Jean W.' I sent blessings to Jean, feeling predatory as if snatching away the old man's dead wife within minutes of her demise, "While the body's still warm," as folks say. Artwork by Wendy and Jean are still visible in what used to be their canvases. Their work still peeks through the layers of my Bricolage work. I like to think they honor the Bricolage pieces with their presence. "There are no mistakes," I repeated as I loaded Jean's canvases.

 

I was preparing my sense of values, of what is important and of importance itself, for originality to emerge. I had to be prepared for whatever emerged, interesting or not, painterly or not, useful or not, in order to capture originality moving about in its paradoxical conditions. One enters a universe in which there are no mistakes, only circumstances and a psychic space turning in endless flow. The emergence of originality came from my ways of not-knowing as I composed my painting actions non-intentionally and in this way approached originality through the principle of least resistance. "Put your ego aside and move with ease," I instructed myself.

 

Using latex paint leftovers from the Horizons wall paint colors I improvised freeform designs by slathering the paint on these discarded, somewhat damaged canvases and other non-traditional grounds, such as house siding samples and foam board. I restricted myself, budget-wise, to the café colors available. Partial half-gallons of semi-gloss latex from the "lo-hide" Horizon's palette were my major paint supply since these were available to me without cost. "Making do with whatever is," went my mantra.

Note: In an attempt to place the creative process in a real-time context,
the following description is written in present tense.

It is summer and I'm moving in and out of my mixed workspace—inside the garage and outside on the backyard grass, doing, doing, and moving in and out—often a brush is at hand, often one is not.

 

Following the imperatives of free improvisation (no planning, no direction, no intentionality, no time...nothing but psychic space), I lay out as many as ten pieces at once, from canvases to large cardboard pieces, and work on them simultaneously for as long as a sequence of motions continues to express a particular compositional action. This unshaped process is grounded in a visual rift. I am watching myself move and noticing how color and fluid shapes intermingle. A "pour" method emerges as I do this. It's something I can do while I'm moving. This emergence of a method is born from taking the least-effort direction. Rather than take time to decide what I want to do, I do what I can and improvise on the fly by pouring paint as I go in and out. An entire compositional riff ensues in which various ways of working with "pour" deploy in various rhythmic patterns across a half dozen splashed canvases. Musical analogies to Jazz are always appropriate, but the three least-cause principles I use are multimodal, synergistic, and synaesthetic, here deployed through visual rather than auditory ambiance. Jazz hears Bricolage and Bricolage sees Jazz.

 

The day is hot and I'm working with several bottles of drinking water at hand. I'm now working outside with the array of canvases and other materials lying on the back lawn. I have several small pieces on my one work table. I'm dressed in shorts and sweating. I spread my canvases on the grass, moving them so I can walk between them. Wendy is here with her large pieces. I toss Jean's pieces haphazardly on each side of Wendy's larger pieces with stepping space around them. The clipped grass, outlining the array of canvases and their various themes, gleams like a green arabesque between them.

 

Adding contrast, color, or form (all non-figurative) as I go along, I run out of paint and turn to a can near at hand. It's a different color, but I can reach it without delay and keep going. The principle of least-action guides my movement. My color sense may ask for a light blue, but that would require opening two cans and mixing them to arrive at the right tint. I don't pay attention to my thoughts about my color sense and their words fade as if I were walking away from someone talking. I walk by several pieces on my way to a farther piece and squirt them with water from my drinking bottle as I go by. Following the least-effort principle, I instead throw the paint in hand on the painting surfaces, allowing it to mix into various shades and tints, shapes and curves, as the accidental relations created by the "throw" suggest. I'm using the same Bricolage improvisational process of discovery, but now I am guided by three principles of visual action used to locate and navigate paths in undetermined environments.

 

From these basic formless but active surfaces, I carve out accidental forms and shapes, now a tropical island here and a desert landscape there, all emergent from the dynamics of disorder. I carve with spray enamel, tape and brush, palette knife and more paint, slashing across and through the fluid imprimatura kept alive with water and varnishes. Vases, plates, and exotic flowers appear everywhere. I see Jean's fabric construction turn into a gleaming portrait, and one of Wendy's large action-art pieces turns into Morning with Wendy. With a boa for a scarf, she is sitting nude on a stool with her naked back turned toward the viewer.


PROJECT ENDINGS AND DESIGN THEORY

When the refurbishing of Horizons Café was finished and all the construction trade workers packed up and gone, the kitchen stocked, and the booths, tables, and chairs in place three days before opening day, Sara and Jill (two wait staff), Sue, Jay (the dishwasher), and I hung 23 Bricolage pieces selected from the 44 that I had improvised on the back lawn in the intervening seven weeks.

 

Horizons - Long Wall 

 The Long Wall with Granite Bump Strip and Magic Mushroom

Encouraging customers to lounge at tables long after meals are finished is not in the best interests of a profitable restaurant. A restaurant owner needs to maximize seating by providing a satisfying meal eaten in a reasonable time, thus "turning over" seating capacity regularly. We wanted to shorten this time frame, yet heighten the experience within it. We wanted to design the diner's experience of time.

 

The concept of "designed time" as an experience arises from a new architectural discipline, Experiential Design, pioneered by Jon Adams Jerde, FAIA, and his architectural firm, The Jerde Partnership International, Inc. (www.jerde.com). "The primary focus," Jerde writes about Experiential Design:

"is not an object, but time itself. It's designing what happens to people in time, in a place. Fantasy about place is a primary perceptual method by which people form a bond with their home. Successful urban concepts will deliver on the promise of a positive fantasy in a real way" (Visceral Reality, The Jerde Partnership International, L'Arca Edizioni, 1998).

But Experiential Design is an architectural concept for people bodily moving about in an environment, such as pedestrian traffic in downtown environments. Conversely people in a restaurant will be obviously sitting down with intent to be sedentary for the duration of their dining experience.

 

When Rich said to us that he wanted his clientele to have an "elegant dining experience," we understood he meant the obvious—dining at ease in a physically enjoyable ambiance harmonious with seeing, smelling, tasting, chewing, and eating gourmet food. We were to provide a concrete multi-sensory, aesthetically pleasing experience appropriate to savoring gourmet vegan cuisine. "Ambiance" was interpreted, given the candlelit tables and booths that Kate and Rich ordered up, to mean "how people experience time while dining in soft light." Associates who have followed Jerde's innovative direction write about ambiance:

"More than mere architecture, Jerde's designs evoke a deep sense of identity and enable rich social dynamics. Once immersed in one of his created places, it's impossible to be a mere passerby. Each individual becomes part of the scene, both contributing to the experience and, in turn, taking away an indelible memory of the encounter" (Strategic Horizons LLP, 2001).

The sense of presence and place, of visceral involvement from a sedentary position, is achieved through heightened visual behavior stimulated by enhancing color and line through layering them in a design. Instead of foot traffic, the person visually "moves around" in the environment. The layered visual environment stimulates improvisational perception. We provided this stimulus by evoking involuntary eye movements, like blinking or noticing out of the corners of one's eyes, and by inducing directionless looking among incomplete architectonic and ecological visual pathways. We wanted people to look around, to see colorful difference everywhere, with the feeling they were sitting at the loci of a sense of place. Sitting in this centered presence, the meal unfolds as the heart of their experience while they dine.

 

It is a common observation that the experience of time is variable. Thus one forkful may feel like an endless delicious chew but lead to the discovery that one's plate is emptied; or 15 minutes of lively conversation may feel as entertaining as an hour of talking, and the time spent waiting for table service may suddenly feel brief and surprisingly well spent. One can forget that time is passing and not hear time ticking from every corner as we usually do. Our objective was to create the emotionally plastic feeling of time well spent, a visceral ambiance blurring the persistent and conventional presence of chronological time. At this aesthetic level of experienced ease, of relaxed alertness, time itself uncurls and becomes the plasticity of dream experience, the theta state of right brain engagement. To me, these are Mayan ways, the ways of Mayan perception in complex environments, even one contained like a terrarium in a box.

 

Hans Hoffman said that if a painting is going to have magic in it, the process must have magic in it. An improvised piece of perception carries with it the inherent originality of its compositional approach by stimulating a sense of plasticity as a visceral reality (the feeling of freedom and spaciousness in the seat of one's experience). The experience of feeling "present," the visceral sense of "being there," can clearly, even magically, change the viscosity of time's experience from one of linearity into one of an expanding, multi-sensory, waveform experience. This is the theta brainwave state. The challenge was to come to grips with this experiential concept of time and to create a sensory dimension for it to strum its many ways among many people, yet at the same time to maintain the compositional integrity of the improvisational approach of non-intentionality. We "wanted" this but we didn't "want" it. You see the paradox.

Color location in Horizon's modest environment became asymmetrical, non-rhythmic. It was also amiable, the colors easily yielding to other colors. These easy perceptual glides create inducements to visual movement, to an active looking around to see what one can see. Jerde International states:

"We connect to the visceral by orchestrating the level of drama, the balance between active and quiet space, the variations of light—dappled or rhythmic or brilliant, and color—saturated or faded, neon-bright or as subdued as a watercolor. Together these make unique sensory and emotional experiences."

The optical level of drama in the Horizons Café project was orchestrated by introducing ambiguity into many visual gestalts that suggest, imply, and provide what Escher called "glides," that is, visual pathways among incomplete yet interlocking forms with alternating patterns of the familiar and the strange. Glides allow the eye to move between and among perceptual juxtapositions, including unique contradictions, with a guided ease. The optic effect of color field saturation and discontinuous segmentation is a pixeling effect that also induces involuntary eye movement. The eye moves in visual behavior from one richly painted plane with distinct edges to "discovering" another figure/ground gestalt to which it is connected, sometimes by something as fugitive as contrast. This theta-based visual behavior is a perceptual, non-cognitive process that emerges as direct participation in a color field dynamic. The more deeply engaged one is in visual behavior, the more time expands to experience it.

 

The level of abstraction in the environment (stylization of concepts, e.g., arches as minimalist hard-edged silhouettes) prevents attempts to anchor one's eyes by searching for something familiar and stymies the need for representational perception, thus continuously inducing the eyes to engage in active discovery of paths to unsuspected new forms. The inability of the eye to find other than a transitory focus unhinges perceptual fixedness, bathing and re-immersing the diner's visual behavior in color field dynamics. A person feels relaxed, at ease yet alert, the effect of which is to make the individual feel a participant in the ambiance. In this way, the individual diner engages in improvisational and compositional visual behavior while sitting casually. Speaking about the American shopping mall prototype, Jerde International announced:

"We adapted it by adding new elements that didn't disturb its function, but instead added moments of surprise and excitement. We created a magical quality utilizing intensity and activity; at our projects senses are stimulated. But at the same time we preserve a comfort level, encouraging in our users a willingness to explore. Elements of the practical and the magical co-exist and enhance one another."

The experience of visual discovery, of unexpectedly finding the familiar, as diners visually browse the environment is not only a collective experience, but, asserts Jerde, "The communal experience is a designable event."

 

We followed Jerde's lead, but without a budget and confined to a boxed space hardly large enough to make a spacious shoe store, we simply made do.

Horizons Café was launched and I returned to my studies, in this case, how to think about Bricolage creativity. I wanted to teach my doctoral students how to conduct interdisciplinary research using Bricolage-based improvisational methods. In a cognitive form, this kind of bricolage is called connectionist thinking. As it has been often said, if you want to really learn something, teach it to someone else.

 

After five years of operating Horizons Café, Rich and Kate made the move to downtown successfully (www.horizonsphiladelphia.com). The new décor is elegant and upscale. The service is friendly and patient. The food glows on your plate in the soft light. Improvised for the different ambiance, new bricolage pieces hang there also. And most brightly, Kate and Rich now have a child by the name of Rio. 

© 2007-2008  Jose Cedillos (rev 08/08/2008).   All rights reserved.

BACK TO TOP

SUMMARY:  The Horizons Café project consisted of transforming a shoebox-shaped former pizza operation into something cool and interesting. The space was 50 by 100 feet, including a rear office and two bathrooms. When I first looked inside the facility, I muttered, "Holy shit, what have I taken on!"  The utilitarian "eatery" challenged conventional answers to transformation. A box is still a box, I thought before I let the resistive thought flow away.